Its been a hard couple of days, with one thing and another. I hadn’t been out for a long walk with the dog either for a few days so I took myself off earlier to a local park and just strolled in the sunshine and the wind, breathed deeply and felt some tension slip away.
Collected a couple of feathers, one white with brown spots and one small black one as well as harvested a few not-quite-ripe apples from a tree that I dont think a lot of people know its there, its a cultivated apple that has gone wild and its hidden from the main paths so still laden with fruit! Will put the apples in a fruit jelly mix I am making later (with them being under-ripe they will have plenty of pectin).
Definitely feel better for some fresh air and all those autumn colours….
My first Autumnal Equinox.
Candle holder…a glass with autumn pressed leaves glued on.
My fire top altar for this evening, decorated with finds me and the children have found while out walking. Seeds, acorns, chestnuts and leaves.
Our meal for tonight, butternut squash soup served with cheese and onion homemade rolls…yum!
Autumnal Equinox or Mabon?
Which name do you prefer/use? Either way today is the equinox, day and night are equal, from here we descend into shorter days and longer nights. It is time for things to wind down, the earth to regenerate, the Oak King is giving way to the Holly King and the Goddess moves into her Crone phase.
Personally I love Autumn and Winter but I know a lot of people don’t and find this darker part of the year difficult to cope with.
This my first Sabbat since choosing to walk my path and to say I am excited is a bit of an understatement.
My plan for the day is to go to work and do the first driving shift, then I plan to shop locally for the ingredients I need to make some Cheese and Onion Mabon rolls ( Mabon bread recipe) and I plan to make Roasted Butternut Squash soup to serve with it, along with some wine If there is time I would like to ready some stuffed apples for baking but I will wait and see if it can all be done before I have to return to the afternoon driving shift.
Once my parents – who collect the children from school for me – go home, we will make an altar with finds we have made whilst out walking, leaves, nuts, seeds and a handmade pentangle, made from some bendy twigs, along with some candles.
As this is the second harvest and a time to give thanks, I have a list of reasons I am thankful this year, this I will read out loud to my Goddess.
This may not be how others celebrate but to each their own, I would love to hear how you mark your Sabbat and I wish you a Blessed Mabon!
I am filling in one of these over the next few months to see if I can see a pattern.
I have lived with depression on and off since I was about 18 and this last episode has lasted the longest but it did coincide with some pretty major illness too.
I am in charge at the moment , not my ‘black dog’ and it will be interesting to see how conciously choosing to follow my path/listen to my soul will have on both me and my black dog.
This moon chart may help me see patterns in my mood as well as hormonal patterns so it will be an interesting experiment!
Wow…..I have gone and done it, I have made a blog where I can record all my waffle and musings and stuff that I find and discover whilst walking this new and exciting path. I cant say I have chosen this path, I think it was chosen for me and has always been there but I have finally noticed and listened and made the decision to start walking.
As for most people I think it will be a very personal path and I am looking forward to it very much, I think there has been something missing for a while now and once I made the decision to start walking, the sense of calm and ‘rightness’ that I have felt over the last few weeks has been amazing!
I was raised in a non-conformist Church of England family, my maternal grandparents very much church, in fact they were founding members of their chapel, we went to Sunday school but as I got older this became less important to me and it wasn’t forced upon me to go. As a child you dont really question why, just accept that it is but as technology and science and information became more accessible as I grew the more I believed in evolution as opposed to creationism, so the church didn’t sit right anymore or should I say the right and wrong as decreed by the Church didn’t sit right anymore, so much hate and destruction done in the name of ‘God’ across a lot of faiths, how can that be right?
I had always had an ‘inner hippy’ and my soul chose another soul just like mine to fall in love with, marry and have two beautiful children with, there has always been a sense of ‘rightness’ when in old sacred places, stone rings, burial mounds and the like and I have always fancied that it was speaking to the Celtic parts of my ancestry (Irish and Welsh) but maybe it was my inner voice telling me that I needed to listen and to go back to something much more ancient and natural.
Earlier this year we got a dog in an effort to help boost my feelings of worth and confidence by helping with some weight loss ( I was carrying a LOT of weight). The change this dog of ours, that we adopted from a shelter, has made to us as a family is profound, the family time has improved, the outside time has been a balm to my soul and this in turn is what I think has helped me make the decision to start walking my pagan path, the turning of the seasons etc.
Our daughters at 7 and 8 (and a half!), are fascinated by what I am doing, how I am changing how I look at stuff, the practices that I want to put into place, in fact my name Witchosity, is what they call it when mummy is doing stuff! My husband fully backs my decision (being of a similar nature), he may not walk every step with me but he is interested in how I feel and what discoveries I make so at least I know I can talk about it with him.
The fact that the Autumn Equinox/Mabon is only 2 days away was fundamental in my decision to write this blog as this will be my first Sabbat…or is it Esbat – (see a lot to learn!) and I am beyond excited, I have some ideas of how I am going to celebrate/honor it but that will be another post.
Anyway, that is enough of an introduction from me, I am off out to walk the dog as there is a gap in the rain, time to make the most of it, be back soon…….and if anyone but me reads this, hi!