How are you all doing? Moving on with life as the wheel continues to turn?
I hope you had a wonderful Imbolc, however you marked it or even if you didn’t. I had the pleasure of being invited to the handfasting of two friends of mine, it was wonderful to watch and to take part in. I had made my triple armed Brigid’s cross and had laid my cloth-Brat Brigid on Imbolc eve to receive her blessing if she passed, as well as having candles lit inside the house.
Anyway, back to the reason for me blogging again…Ego!
There have been a number of incidents in the last few days, the latest being this morning that made me realise that I have allowed my ego to come to the fore……and I wasn’t very impressed when I realised this. In fact it made me quite uncomfortable.
Since when did I decide that I was judge and jury on other people’s actions or even reactions to what I had done.
I had become quite complacent in my abilities, in fact it felt like bordering on arrogance!
I had to go out this morning to buy something and felt the need to let another driver know that he was wrong by running his red light after our lights had changed to green. Of course he knew what he was doing, any driver would it I felt the need (through sign language!) to tell him off. Following this I upset another driver, there is a particular stretch of road where traffic comes together from different directions and merges, most people know and understand how to do this at normal driving speeds. I did merge without thinking that I could possibly scare or upset another driver….but apparently I did. I don’t know if it was fear or anger that made them respond the way they did but the vitriol that was then direction at me….she was almost foaming at the mouth!
It was at this point I realised that maybe I had become too complacent and casual (arrogant!) towards other drivers…..just because I knew what I was doing/about to do, doesn’t mean they knew.
After getting what I needed I came straight home, grabbed the dog and a small bottle of whisky and went to the park. I needed to ask for help in humility so I walked the labyrinth asking my deities for their assistance. When I reached the centre of the labyrinth I made an offering of transplanted snowdrops and a libation of whisky.
As usual, when walking back out of the labyrinth, I felt like some of my issues had been lifted from my shoulders and I feel lighter. Maybe the sheer fact of realising I had let ego take over means I will know be better able to keep it in check? Maybe I will get the assistance I have asked for….either way I will try my best to not let it happen again.
Have you ever let ego take over in an aspect of your life?